Do you have someone you trust with all of your secrets? Who you can be your complete uninhibited self with? Who loves you no matter what you say or do? Someone who just feels like home? Do you have a “person”?

Westynn has one of those too. It’s her Grammy. There is nobody in this world who can light up her spirit like Grammy does. To the point that I tend to find myself getting slightly jealous at times. They have a bond that I don’t think anyone else could ever touch, or understand. It’s absolutely beautiful. To see your baby, who doesn’t necessarily form strong relationships, have such a pull towards one certain person.

Grammy is sick. She isn’t able to be Westynns person right now. And that is heartbreaking for me. She is able to see her from time to time, but they aren’t able to play their silly little games that only they know. Ten, Howling, Butterfly, Noogy… there are hundreds of secret games they have. I don’t know anyone else that will be able to access that spot in Westynns heart again. I pray and pray and pray we don’t lose that beautiful piece of her.

I hate cancer. I hate cancer for stealing precious time with Westynns person. I hate it for taking away her Grandad. And her Aunt. And who knows how many other important people in her life to come. We trust our God without a single doubt… but that doesn’t make it suck any less!

This seems to have turned into more of a venting post as opposed to an informative one… but thank you for reading along anyways!

*clarifying… Grammy is still with us! But she is just too sick to be able to be with Westynn much right now*